not sure that my pregnant emotions can handle - (been putting off talking about this)

Boys r us wrote:

the events of this week.

My dad's brother died last night. He's been through a lot, he was diabetic for most of his life and had a successful kidney transplant about 3 years ago. Well as of the last 6 months his kidney had quit functioning well. Last week he got an infection in his brain, which was caused from bacteria build up in the blood from kidney failure. Anyhow..he was only 58 yrs old and I was super close with my uncle and his children growing up..vacations together, we lived 1 minute apart, we were always doing something together and we were still close and my brothers and I are still very close with our cousins,his grown children.

I just have cried and cried and then I'll be okay and then it will start again. I know he's better off b/c he was suffering so badly the last year or so. But I still just lose it when I think of how I'm not going to ever see him again and then I'm like niagra falls when I think of how his wife of 35 years must feel right now and how his daughter and his 3 sons are hurting...UGHHHHHHHH. Seriously...I am scared to go to the viewing tomorrow and to the funeral on Thrusday b/c I am so emotional right now. I am scared I'm going to just lose it completely.
But I do not have a choice, nor would I really not want to go, I need to be there for my family and for my dad..not to mention I would never forgive myself for not paying my last respect to such a important person in my life.

Bee_Kay replied:
I am so sorry
I hope that somehow you and your family find the strength, somehow, to get through this terribly difficult time.

C&K*s Mommie replied: P&PT's for you father's family.

I was a basketcase, or a wrecking ball when I was PG, I am not sure if it was okay to have such emotions, but if you need to cry, go ahead and release your emotions.

mckayleesmom replied:

BAC'sMom replied:

Momof3inMe replied: When my grandfather passed away 3 years ago the end of this April I was about as PG as you are and I know how you feel. I was a mess. I did go in front of people, but when I was alone or at home with my DH I would cry so hard. When we were at the grave site I lost it and had a very hard time. I just let it all out and after it was all over and done with I really did feel better. I know its hard to think about moving on and I felt the same way as you do but give it time and you will be ok. Just remember your uncle will be watching over you everyday.

jem0622 replied: I am so verry sorry. If you cannot stay in the room with everyone during the viewing then they should all understand. We have our limits!

Sarah&Mackenzie replied: I am so sorry for your loss, I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers

TANNER'S MOM replied: I am so very sorry for your loss.

I am close to my Uncle's also and I lost one last year and I remember what it felt like so much! I hope you are okay.. it does hurt no matter what.

I will be thinking of you girl!

A&A'smommy replied: Oh Nichole I'm SO sorry to hear that its always VERY hard to loose someone you love and care about, especially when you were close to them!! I will keep your family and friends in my P&PT"S

ashtonsmama replied: I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle...

Cut yourself a lot of slack, emotions are very hard to handle while pregnant, I know that from experience, so don't beat yourself up about being sad, you need to grieve, that's a big event. I'm so sorry he passed, but he is in a much better place, and in perfect health and body there...
We're here when you need us...

redchief replied: Nichole, I'm very sorry for your loss. As far as what you do as far as grieving for your loss goes, that's very private and personal. You do what you feel is right for you and don't worry about anything else. Again, I'm sorry.

kimberley replied: i am sorry for your loss. it is okay to cry if you need to. p&pt your way.

MyLuvBugs replied: Oh sweetie I'm so sorry!! I know exactly what you're going through. DH's grandma died when I was 8 1/2 months PG with Lorelei. I LOVED that woman so much, and she'd wanted to see Lorelei so badly It hurts so much inside. I totally understand. If you ever need another PG girl to talk to just let me know.

Mom2BNTN replied: I'm sorry to hear about your loss. It isn't good to hold your emotions inside so just go ahead and let it all out. Your family knows how close you were so don't be afraid to cry..... you won't be the only one crying I'm sure. Be thankful he isn't suffering anymore.

luvmykids replied:

Everything you're feeling is normal, and on top of that the pg makes it feel so much worse. You just do what you need to do to get through it. Many hugs and prayers to you and all your family.

mom21kid2dogs replied: So soory for your family's loss.

b&bsmom replied:

I had to attend the funeral of my dh's grandmother 5days after my first was born. It was tough and I was very emotional but glad I did it.

My2Beauties replied: Hon it's ok to cry! Let it all out, it will make you feel better. I know it's hard to let yourself go when you're preggo, it worried me when I would get stressed out or cry or anything, but I actually think that releases the stress of a situation and helps you to cope. I am so sorry for your loss and my P&PT's are with you and your family hon We're here for you!

Maddie&EthansMom replied:
I agree with LeaAnn. It's much better to cry than to bottle that up.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to find peace.

mysweetpeasWil&Wes replied: I'm so sorry Nichole...

3xsthefun replied: I'm so sorry for your loss.

JAYMESMOM replied: I am so sorry. Death is not easy to deal with when you are not pregnant let alone pregnant. I know how hard it can be when I was pregnant with Jayme we had several funerals and each one got harder the further along I was.

Hang in there and know that it is okay to cry.

CantWait replied: I'm so sorry. P&PT's going your way

CosmetologyMommy replied: I pray u have strength to get through tomorrow