Update on my appointment - yesterday... a little bit tmi

~Roo'sMama~ wrote: It was good to talk to my doctor and have some of my fears relieved - I was afraid that when I had mastitis a couple weeks ago that the infection and the fever maybe caused something to go wrong, but she said that my fever would have had to be a lot higher so that's good. I found out that the baby stopped developing at 7 weeks 2 days. According to my dates that I was going with that would have been only 3 days before the ER on sunday. If I was wrong and my due date was actually dec. 1 it would have been that day but I really don't think it was. I hope not anyways.

I told my doctor that on sunday night I had really bad cramping that felt like early labor, that lasted about a half hour but that nothing happened after that and I've only had mild cramps and regular bleeding with a couple little clots since then, so she said that if it stays the same for another week I can go in and have another u/s to see if I miscarried without noticing it. I will be kind of glad to know I guess, but I'm not crazy about the thought of going through that again. I'm kind of hoping that it will happen before then so that we can cancel the u/s.

Half of me wants to just get this over with, and the other half doesn't want to let go. The more time that goes by the more I find myself almost being in denial and having this crazy, totally unfounded hope that maybe it was all a big mistake and my baby is ok.

C&K*s Mommie replied: I do not know what to say, but all I have to offer are virtual hugs.

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punkeemunkee'smom replied: SO sorry!

MyBrownEyedBoy replied: Sara, I think your reaction is perfectly normal. Here's a big virtual (((HUG))) to you.

Sarah&Mackenzie replied: I am so sorry

mysweetpeasWil&Wes replied: I'm sorry sweetie!

~~*Missi*~~ replied: I am so so sorry for you lose. I have had 2 mc.....if you need to vent cry talk etc... please please feel free to PM or email me. I am here to talk
It took me a few days to talk about it when they happened.

So sorry
Missi

Mom2BNTN replied: Sending hugs your way....

huggybugboy replied: I'm so sorry Sara. I will be praying for you.

jem0622 replied: Lots of hugs. I would ask the doc for meds to help, like methargine. You really do not want to m/c at home.

ashtonsmama replied:

That makes perfect sense to me, Sara. I'm so sorry again, hun...I don't know what to say...but we're here...

BAC'sMom replied: so sorry

AlexsPajamaMama replied: I hope everything turns out alright for you

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~Roo'sMama~ replied:
I actually think I'd rather be at home when it happens ~ I never feel comfortable in a hospital. When I was at the ER after we found out that I was going to miscarry all I wanted to do was go home. My doctor did prescribe something for the pain if I need it when the time comes. She suggested either a D&C or some meds if it hasn't happened by next week but I think the only way I'd want that is if it just wasn't going to happen on it's own and there was a risk of infection. I guess we'll see what happens ~ I just hope it doesn't take a really long time.

kimberley replied: what you are feeling is totally normal. i know i kept vigil that they were all wrong when i m/c weeks before conceiving Jade. vent and cry all you need to. it helps a bit.

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amymom replied: What you are feeling is normal, or at least was for me. Take care

holley79 replied: Oh sweetie I don't know what to say but thoughts and prayers your way.

~Roo'sMama~ replied:
See that's what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid that even though in my mind I know it's not a mistake, that I'm holding onto too much hope in my heart and then when I do miscarry it'll just be too hard to handle.

I seem to be all out of tears today too. I just feel empty and drained.

Bee_Kay replied: Sara, I am so sorry