To Loose a Freind - What did I do?
Kirstenmumof3 wrote:  It's been a very difficult week for me and due to the sensitive nature of the subject I will just say that I was admitted to the hospital on Friday evening and released this afternoon. What makes this even more difficult is that I've lost my bestfriend, my only friend (you all know what I mean).
 I mourned loosing her while in the hospital, questioning myself repeatedly as to what I had done to make her turn her back on me, what had I done that was so wrong that she wouldn't speak to me. Doctors and nurses tried to console me, tried to explain that it's just difficult for both of us right now. But I just couldn't understand and now it's over. It's hard to explain, but it's like we're a part of each other and now it feels like a part of me is dying. I don't know what to do. It hurts so bad!
My nurse lastnight was right I wasn't ready to leave the hospital. She put in her report that I should have stayed at least until the end of the week. But what can I do, they told me I was ready to go.
I spoke at lengths about this relationship with my Psychologist and my Psychiatrist (we both share the same psychiatrist) and they both agree that ending this relationship wouldn't be good for both of us. Our relationship is hard to explain.
Whats done is done and I need to move on. But I don't know how.
P.S if this is in any way inappropriate for the board feel free to delete it, I don't want to upset or offend anyone.
luvmykids replied: 
Is there a chance that after some time apart you and your friend might be able to work it out?
amynicole21 replied: I'm so sorry sweetie. She hasn't given you any indication of what was upsetting her? I know it hurts terribly right now. It's hard not to dwell on it. But do what you can to get your mind on other things, even for short periods of time. Watch movies, read, etc. I tend to obsess over things and sink into bouts of depression, but I find that keeping myself busy does help. I'm here if you need a shoulder.
Maddie&EthansMom replied: It's so hard losing a friend, especially when you feel as though it's your only friend and the only person you feel a connection with. I hope in time she will realize what she's giving up and how badly the two of you need one another. I'm sorry to hear that you had to be admitted last night and they sent you home too early. Like Amy said, it always helps to stay busy. You are in my thoughts and prayers. We are here for you anytime, hun.
Kirstenmumof3 replied:
I was admitted Friday evening and discharged this afternoon. There is this code called "CODE GRIDLOCK" and it means there are no beds available in the hospital. This is why I was sent home today, they needed the bed. It's really hard, I was supposed to go to DH's for dinner but I'm sitting here waiting for my medications to be delivered. I've been waiting since 4:00 and they said it may take until 9:00.
My friend turned her back on me when I phoned to tell her I was in the hospital. It broke my heart. 
Maddie&EthansMom replied: I realized when I went back and reread your post that you said Friday and not last night.
I hope you get your meds soon. Do you think being with the family will help right now?
bawoodsmall replied: I hope things get better and I do know what you mean. I feel like I am losing my best friend.
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Calimama replied: I'm sorry. If she were a true friend she'd stick by you, especially when you needed her the most.
Kirstenmumof3 replied: Thanks everyone! I finally made it to DH's house they saved a plate for me!
MommyToAshley replied: I'm sorry. I don't know the details, but I am sorry she hurt you so badly. I agree with Amy, try to find things to do to keep your mind busy. Maybe you can get some extra visits in with the kids, they're always a wonderful distraction.
And, we're always here for you.
A&A'smommy replied: Oh honey I'm SOOO sorry!!!! Thats so hard I can't imagine going through something like that!!!
MoonMama replied: I'm so sorry hun.
gr33n3y3z replied:
That so suck
By any chance did you ask her why? Maybe she has a reason but I think that is quite drastic to do to someone
Kirstenmumof3 replied:
I can't get into all the details, but basically she told me she doesn't know how to help me anymore.
Hillbilly Housewife replied:
Aww Kirsten.
We're here for you, as always.
Kirstenmumof3 replied:  It was great seeing my family lastnight! We were all teasing Emily about this boy named Todd, that her cousin says really likes her. Where not sure if this boy is even real, but Claudia got in on it and was saying "Toddy is Emily's Boyfriend!" Poor Emily! 
Hillbilly Housewife replied: That's too cute!!!
My...into boys already, huh? She's gonna be a heartbreaker, she's so pretty!
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booey2 replied: Sorry you are having rougher times right now, I was wondering how you all were doing.
Terri
Kaitlin'smom replied: I am so sorry she did that to you. I know of a very similar experience. My sitter lost her 'best friend' when her son was diagnosed with LKS. it was sad and heartbreaking, to think someone so close can hurt you so much just when you need them its a shame. For her it was the best thing. Sounds like dinner with DH and the kids was good for you. I am sorry your having a ruff time right now we are here for you.
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katiesmom2002 replied: Aww im sorry to hear that. Maybe she will realize oneday that she shouldnt have turned her back on you and ask for your friendship back. We are hear for you.
sparkys2boys replied: Aww I am so sorry that you are going through this right now I hope she relizes what she is mssing in you and you two can work it out.
Kirstenmumof3 replied: Thanks Everyone!
gr33n3y3z replied:
I can understand a new friend not being able to deal but someone thats been your friend for so long is just a cop out
Why dont she just try being a friend to you
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