This just stinks!

coasterqueen wrote: I'm back at work today and it sucks! I don't want to be here. I'm so angry, angry at my husband, at my co-workers, everyone today! I had to leave my baby girl screaming and I didn't want to.

Everyone keeps saying it will get better, blah blah blah, but you know it hasn't. It hasn't gotten any easier since the first day I had to leave Kylie and it's not better now.

I really hate life right now. Sorry for being so negative.

~KARA~ replied: Huggs! I cant imagine how you are feeling. I have never had to leave my girls that young. I hope you have a better day and things get easier!

gr33n3y3z replied: Sorry things are going all wrong for you

mammag replied: Aww Karen I'm so sorry! I remember that from going back to work when I had Kristen, I just couldn't do it, I cried every day for the 6months I worked and then I quit.

Is there any possiblity for you to work from home in your field? Then you could just have someone in your house to watch them while you are working but you'd still be there.......

I hope it does get better for you. I'm sure they are in good hands and you know that but it's a hard thing to do anyway. Lots of HUGS!!!!

Sunflower04 replied: Don't be sorry for being down. I know going back to work is hard. Hopefully it will get better soon for you.

MommyToAshley replied:
Your post made me cry.

I am so sorry. I would feel the same way. Your sitter sounds wonderful and I am sure the girls are just fine with her, but I know that doesn't make it any easier. So, here's some (((((((HUGS)))))) and an ear to listen to your vent any time you want. I wish I could do more.

amynicole21 replied: Great big sympathetic hugs coming your way

Next Wednesday is my first day back I'm so freaking depressed.

Kaitlin'smom replied: I so know how you feel, while I know Kait is perfectly fine it still breaks my heart to leave her to work its even worse since this am she did not want to go to the sitters and when I pulled in the drive way she cried, and did not want me to leave her. ((BIG HUGS))

jcc64 replied: I'm so sorry Karen. Don't apologize for being down- you have every right to feel as you do. But the one thing that carries me through the down times is the idea that they are transient. Things WILL get better over time- Megan will acclimate and her nervous system will mature, and you will adjust too. That doesn't make anything better in the here and now, but maybe it will sustain you until then.
In the meantime, great big hugs.

Mommy2BAK replied: Aww, so sorry to hear that Karen. I hope things get better soon.

Jamielou replied: You almost made me cry....Im sorry you are feeling this way today I hope things get better for you..... Does your babysitter come to your home to watch the girls?

My2Beauties replied: I'm sorry Karen, I fel so horrible when I first came back to work after Hanna, I think I called the sitter like 20 times that day! I'm so sorry! I hope things start looking up for you? Is Mammag's suggestion anything you could possibly do even if it's like 2-3 days a week that you're at home?

A&A'smommy replied: (((((HUGS))))) I'm SOO SOO sorry Karen!!!

kimberley replied: (((hugs))) hon. i am sorry you are feeling so down. i can totally understand that. is your sitter near your work? maybe she can bring the girls down for breaks and lunch? i wish there was something i could do for you. i hope you can work something out.

coasterqueen replied: Thanks everyone.

Unfortunately what I do I can't really do from home. I've searched a lot during my 3.5 months of maternity leave trying to find something I can do from home with no luck. At least not doing something at home that will bring in the kind of money I make out in the workplace. And unfortunately we NEED my salary to help pay the mortgage on the property that's been in DH's family for generations.

I even asked DH if we could at least afford a nanny in our home because I thought I'd feel much better with that, but we can't. Our at-home sitter is very good but the kind of attention Megan needs, well with 4 other toddlers running around, I'm just not sure if she can handle it. I'm sure she can, but well, you know . SIGH.

coasterqueen replied:
No, she's near my home instead....just right down the road. With all the other kids she has (4) that would be a lot to ask of her. Oh well, gotta do what I gotta do.

JAYMESMOM replied: Hang in there. I know it isn't easy. I am sure your sitter will do just fine with the 4 toddlers and your new precious baby.

I find the older kids really gave Jayme a lot attention when she was a baby and now they still do.

Just think your day is half over.

moped replied: It is a terrible feeling and I am so sorry you are going thru it all right now.......................vent away!!!!

Insanemomof3 replied: Sorry things are so tough for you right now. I hope it gets better for you soon.

Candee replied: OMG, I wish I could become SuperMom for you! Prayers for you! If you can, try being a stay at home mom! I'd sooo help!

Candee
Jaimee (1-7-04)
Ryan (3-2-04)

~Roo'sMama~ replied: I'm sorry Karen! Don't apologise for being sad ~ give Megan and Kylie both some extra hugs and kisses when you get home today!

SOUTHERN MOMMY replied: :grouphug:Big hugs to you hun sorry you feel so sad

Josie83 replied: xx

HannaSpears replied: Hang in there!

DansMom replied:
Karen, this IS a hard time. You have every right to be upset. I feel for you!