Tamaras Peekaboo Article

mckayleesmom wrote: http://www.peekaboonwa.com/articles/person...ibute-to-tamara

Beautifully written by mom and daughter...but just so sad to read. I'm sitting here forcing back tears.




"God has given me strength to understand, there are things we are not meant to understand"....beautiful words spoken by Tamara.

luvbug00 replied: i'm at a loss of words..so inspiring and strong all at the same time. I miss her.. and I'm crying at work...

coasterqueen replied: I read that a short time back. It was absolutely beautiful yet sad at the same time. I was a loss for words. I find myself asking myself every time I see a picture of her children on face book "why, why?".

mckayleesmom replied: Everytime I see a picture her mom puts up of the kids I get a knott in my throat.

MommyToAshley replied: Thanks for sharing. I miss Tamara. I knew the twins were hospitalized and that it was a scary situation, but I didn't fully understand what she had gone through with the twins until I read the article. She overcame so much and had such strong faith, I know there had to be other factors that came into play in the tragedy that unfolded. Tamara said it best, "God has given me strength to understand, there are things we are not meant to understand"

my2monkeyboys replied: It does seem so confusing that she went through her brother's suicide and seemed to think it was such an awful event, only to turn around so shortly afterward and repeat it.
That article was so heart-wrenching and inspiring and full of love, I don't understand how it is the same woman.... I still feel so badly for those children. I still pray for all of them.

PrairieMom replied: I knew how bad her babies were, I was worried sick and scared to death for her. I am so glad that she was able to come here for help then, I just wish she would have come here before she died.
It still amazes me how someone you never *met* can touch you.
Ugh. I just feel sick. Every picture I see of her , she just looks blissful, but it makes me So sad. its a strange combination in my brain or something, its just hard to grasp. Even still.

mckayleesmom replied: I totally understand what you all are saying. Even on her myspace she has an entry talking about not understanding how someone could commit suicide.

I just keep telling myself that the girl who pulled the trigger was not the Tamara we all know and love. She wasn't in her right frame of mind. Maybe she had some pp depression and didn't even realize it.

I really don't know...I just know that Tam would have never left her babies on purpose.

Danalana replied: I have read the story she wrote, and it's amazing. Her mom's tribute to her was so touching and beautifully written...
This still makes me so sad. Like the rest of you, the pieces just don't seem to fit. I'm so glad the kids have the love and support that they will need.

Our Lil' Family replied: I don't think we'll ever understand. I know she was on anti-depressants, or anti-anxiety meds and I truly think those can do a number on someone. I don't think she was "Tamara" when she decided she couldn't go on. It's really sad. Meds help so many people, but they can be SO DANGEROUS to others and there is no way of knowing until it's already affecting them.

~Roo'sMama~ replied: It's so sad to read something like that, knowing what happened later. I think of her kids a lot and it always makes me so sad.

mummy2girls replied: Yes its sooo sad. I talked to her mom on facebook a little while after tamara passed away. She was on meds that made her not Tamara. Tamaras hubby told her that he wasnt happy and tamara took some of her kids and went to stay at her moms. Her mom witnessed some things and was worried so she was planning on taking the name of the meds to the doctor and then a few days later she took her life. The meds made her have bad attacks and feel suicidal. I can not remember for teh life of me what they were...

A&A'smommy replied: she was such a beautiful person, I feel SO bad for her kids!

Maddie&EthansMom replied:
So true.