Really upset this morning

Halo42101 wrote: I just feel really upset this morning, thinking how fast our EDD is coming now but no baby to look forward to. I feel as though AF will be starting soon too and I was hoping to be pg. again by our EDD, so it wouldn't be as bad but I am probably going to have to suffer through it anyway and then look forward to hearing all about my best friend's and brother's baby being born right after. It just really bites and it feels so unfair!

MyBrownEyedBoy replied: I wish there were words. I truly do. Hugs and prayers to you, Jessi.

luvmykids replied: Jessi I wish I could say something to help, just know I'm praying for you.

Halo42101 replied: Thank you, Kelly. I am trying my best not to loose it now. DH is sleeping. We're suppose to go to my Dad's later for a cookout with the family and my Sister-in-law is going to be there with my brother. I guess thinking about seeing her big pg. belly got me thinking about it all over again. I have tried really hard to push these kind of thoughts behind me but sometimes they just creep up on me.

Halo42101 replied: Thank you also, Monica. I can really use a lot of prayer right now.

A&A'smommy replied: I'm sorry honey

MyBrownEyedBoy replied:
You know there is no shame in cutting out on a family event if you don't feel emotionally ready to do it. I am sure that your family would completely understand if you and Theron told them you just can't do it now. Then the two of you could go to a local park or something for some quiet time just the two of you.

mummy2girls replied:
I was going to say the same thing!

If you feel you can not handle it then dont go. Your family will understand. When i suffered my losses i could not attend things that would remind me of my babies. My sisterinlaw was preggo same time i was with Jordan and when i lost him i could not face them for the rest of her pregnancy. and i even told them after thier son was born that i cant be there for them until im ready because if im pushed i will resent the baby. i know its not the babys fault but for me to accept my nephew and develop a bond i needed to do it at my own pace! and because they were family they understand and after a while i finally was able to see my nephew and then we ended up develpoing a strong bond and he became my shadow.

I hope you feel better soon!

Halo42101 replied: Thank you too, Jessy Ann. Kelly, I talked to Theron about it just now and he pretty much said the same thing as you but I can't back out now because it's a cookout/birthday celebration for my Dad and my Dad asked me if we could pick up my Gram along the way. We agreed, so I'd feel really guilty if I didn't go. Perhaps, I'll feel better once I am there.

Halo42101 replied: I am so sorry you had to go through that as well with your Sister-in-law being pregnant after you lost Jordan, Shelly. I am glad your family understood after your nephew was born that you needed some space and time to come around when you were ready. I think it's sweet how your nephew is your little shadow now. I will probably have to do the same as you and skip being there for the birth of my nephew when the time comes because I don't think I will be able to handle it. Esp. since their baby is due 2 months to the day ours would have been. Thanks for the advice and support also, Shelly.

mummy2girls replied:
I would also have a talk with them. tell them you are so happy for them about the upcoming baby and such but that you cannnot be pushed and forced into anything until your ready. Tell then you want to be there for your neice/nephew and you will be there just at your pace. One thing my brother did was pushed his son on me thinking it would help if i held him and such and i had to tell him to stop and i told him why and he understood. And i became the aunt my nephew cried for and loved being around:) in teh end hun everything will be ok. It may seem like it wont be somethign you can handle but as time goes on you will be able to love that child and be there for him/her.

((HUGS)))

Halo42101 replied: Thank you so much, Shelly. I know you're right and I will take your avice.

~Roo'sMama~ replied: I'm sorry Jessi, I wish I could say something to make you feel better. I'm praying for you.




I agree. They'll understand if it's too hard and you just can't go. I have a hard time seeing my sister still even though I am pregnant again. Seeing her belly reminds me of where I should be and what I lost.

ashtonsmama replied: I'm so sorry Jess. I wish I could make that precious angel just appear in your arms this instant, I know I can't, but I know you're hurting so much, I just wish we could all take it away for you. Prayers are always with you.