Quick update on us

coasterqueen wrote: Not sure if I will have time to post today or not so I thought I'd give everyone a quick update on us since I haven't been on much of the weekend and not at all yesterday.

Yesterday I was out of town all day for work, very exhausted and had to muster up enough strength to take care of the girls last night, especially with Megan teething.

I got a call from DH last night that his orders are to be in Baton Rouge LA by noon on Thursday and his class ends tonight. SOOOO he has one free day and that means after work tonight I'm rushing home to pack and the girls and I are driving to St. Louis to meet daddy by 7:25 pm tonight. Hope there are no cops on the road tonight. We'll have all day tomorrow with him and he leaves STL on Thursday morning at 6 am and the girls and I will be back in the car hopefully by 7 am and at the sitter by 9 am for me to be at work by 9:30 am.

I have no time left after this little trip so if they get sick on me while DH is gone for 90 days I'm screwed literally. Also my sitter is supposed to get two weeks vacation yet this year and since I took an extended maternity leave Dh was supposed to take that two weeks with the girls...well now that he's gone I'm screwed for sure. Just to ask my boss off for the time I did made him upset. He has every right to be since I come into his office just about every other day asking for something/some kind of leniency. I know he should understand my situation but I was gone for almost 4 months for maternity leave, before that I was on bedrest often so I was off and on work before that, then now all this.....I'm suprised if I'll have a job after this is all done.

I'm so stressed with all this chaos in my life right now I contemplated smoking last night. I haven't had a cigarette in 3 years but if there was one in front of me last night I would have and I really wish I could have one now. If I can't have that I'm afraid I'm going to take up stress eating because I need something. I'm about ready to lose the last ounce of sanity I have left and that's no joke. The girls are keeping me up off and on all night and getting up early, Megan's teething, Kylie won't listen to me, I can't keep the house anywhere near clean (clean enough so we don't get critters), I'm trying to work full-time and take care of all these friggin' bills we don't have money for, the stupid cat is sick and I have no idea when I'm going to get a minute to take it to the vet , my milk supply is slowly vanishing and can't even get enough milk to send to sitter so I had to use frozen milk - which there's not even much of that left. Is there anything else?

Oh and I haven't had one ounce of a moment to watch tv and I hear there is some freakin' tropical storm in Mexico named Stan....is that going to be near my DH by the time he gets down that way? BTW, that's his nickname so how fitting huh?

Ok, sorry I just had a pity party for myself, I better get back to work so I can get this pile of crap done on my desk so I can get home tonight. I'll try to check back in later to catch up on everything I've missed the last few days.

to all.

JAYMESMOM replied: Well for starters I am glad mommy and the girls get to go see daddy. I have been in your shoes of being home and dealing while hubby is away. It is hard but over time you will develop a routine. Once you do then it will work like a clock. Not to say there aren't days you are tired and overexhausted but you know what comes next.

Hang in there and enjoy your day together.

amymom replied: Thanks for updating us. Now take cre of yourself and the girls. I am sure work will be fine. You are very conscientious (oh my spelling is horrible, TG for dictionary.com !!) so just keep doing your best. Noone can expect or need more.
Enjoy your time with hubby tomorrow.

Take care my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sarah&Mackenzie replied: Have a safe trip!! Hope things get better for you!!

My2Beauties replied: I hope things start looking up soon hon! to you and everything will be ok, things have a way of working themselves out. Enjoy your day with DH and the girls and everything will start looking up for you soon. I'm sorry! PM me if you need me!

~Roo'sMama~ replied: Karen, you sound like you might be a little stressed out. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of this right now! You just have way too many things piling up on you.

I'm glad you and the girls are getting a chance to see your hubby though. Have a good visit with him ~ and drive safely!

A&A'smommy replied: OH HUN I wish I could come help you I can't amagine how stressed you are right now!!!! I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers!!! ((((((((HUGS))))))))

MomToMany replied: Sending lots of hugs to you Karen! Wish I could come & help you out!

Boys r us replied: Man, sounds very chaotic!! I know that somehow, some way you will pull through this!!! Is there any way that you can find another sitter to watch the girls while your normal sitter is on vacation so that you don't have to miss work?
As hard as it is, remember that Dh is doing a very good thing!

ediep replied: Karen!

Sounds so stressfull, I don't think I'd be handeling all that stress too well. You are very strong and I know things will work out for you.

Sending P&PT your way

DansMom replied: Karen, I'm impressed with all that you're trying to do. And it does sound impossible that you won't need any time off in the next 90 days... I'd be pulling my hair out trying to work full time with kiddos and no help. Have relatives made any kind offers?

TANNER'S MOM replied: Karen,

You have every right to be stressed... but I think you are making strides and doing a great job..

I have felt the cigarette need too lately.. lets just say no together..

I am glad you get to be with DH! Just lay in his arm and let him make everything alright for a while.. they have an amazing way of doing that for us. As I read your stress.. I have a few tears for you... I can feel your pain.

Hugs to you and know that I am thinking of you..

Mel

Our Lil' Family replied: Sorry to hear about all this stress on you, but you are doing a GREAT job. I'm glad you get to see your DH before he leaves (he's coming here where I live, btw...and no, Stan is not a threat to our area).

Keep up the good work and just take it one day at a time, that's all you can do.

Maddie&EthansMom replied: Karen tons of coming your way. I'm so sorry you are stressed and overwhelmed right now. It will get easier. I'm glad you and the girls get to go see Ryan tonight. Have a good time with him and try not to think about all the bad stuff going on right now.

I've never smoked in my life and I know the "need a cig now" feeling. I can't imagine what you are going thru. We are here for you, hun.

5littleladies replied: Goodness! I got tired just reading your post. I would be stressed out too. I hope things start to calm down for you soon! Enjoy your time with hubby.

Try to not overdo things!

Nikki101 replied: Wow I hope things start to look up for you soon. I know all about not touching a cig in like 3 years and then feeling like starting again except I did start again, my advise stay away..lol easier said then done I am sure.

Hopefully you have a wonderful time with your hubby and that will release some stress for you.

Nikki

coasterqueen replied: Thanks everyone for all your hugs and kind words. It really helps. I thought I'd have time to catch up on everyone before I head south, but I guess I don't. Hopefully I can catch up when I get back.

BTW, Tracy (DansMom) - I wanted to answer your question real quick. Yes, relatives are helping me the best they can. My parents are having us over for dinner 1 or 2 nights a week which helps and all the family have offered their services if I need anything. The problem is Kylie is freaked out that I'm going to leave her too so she won't go anywhere unless I'm there with her. And so far no one has offered to come spend the night with us so I can get sleep. I don't think I'll find anyone who'll do that for us, lol. I haven't asked anyone to take our cat to the vet because I'm afraid they are going to have me make a decision on the cat that I don't want anyone else to have to make. Who knows maybe that won't be the case with her.

We are in a routine, it's just that there is too much for me to do between everything. Course I'm sure you know that with working full-time and having a kid too. By the time you get home, cook dinner, clean up, play for minimal time, get baths, get them to bed - literally an hour before needing to go to bed and that's when I do laundry, get bottles ready for next morning, etc, etc, etc. So routine doesn't mean anything, when you have minimal time to do things and there's not enough hours in the evening to do them.

Ok, I'm out of here to go home and pack and pick up the girls!

everyone!