Okay it's More Than Just ebay..... - I'M NOT DOING SO WELL!

Kirstenmumof3 wrote: Believe me I'm trying to be strong, I'm trying to hold everything together, I'm trying so hard! I broke down yesterday, started crying! I'm mixing up appointments, plans that have been made. I'm so stressed that my sleep has become affect dispite being on very sedating medication. I've gained weight, to the point where I need to buy new clothes before we leave for Toronto, because I won't have access to a washer and dryer like I do here. Oh God, not now! I don't know what to do and the ebay thing, I think was just the last straw!

I'm sorry for whining like this! I just feel that I'm on the verge of a breakdown. It's like watching an accident, there nothing you can do!

luvmykids replied: You have so much going on, don't beat yourself up. I can't keep my stuff straight either and I have nothing on my plate compared to you.

CantWait replied: Like Monica said, you have a lot going on. I'm sure the added pressure of the holidays isn't helping any either. Is there anyway you can take some time out for yourself and do something fun?

amymom replied: I understand. Hugs and prayers for you.

gr33n3y3z replied:
take one day at a time

BAC'sMom replied:

booey2 replied: will send up some extra prayers for you during this tough time

jcc64 replied: Kirstin- Go ahead and fall apart. How long can anyone be expected to hold it together in your position? These are tough times for your family, and you have a right to be losing it. Let it out- believe me, it's gonna find a way out one way or the other. Then you can re group, gather your strength, and be ready for the next battle. In the meantime, big, big

sparkys2boys replied:
I agree here too, you can't be strong 100% of the time. You are human and have alot on your mind, who wouldn't be stressed. Prayers are with you.

lisar replied:
I agree.

Kirstenmumof3 replied: Thanks everyone! I called the Crisis Line lastnight around midnight because I really just needed to talk to someone and the women was very understanding and very supportive. She told me to go up into the Mountain (we have a small mountain with a scenic lookout) and scream and yell. She told me that if I needed to cry, just let the tears come and stop holding them back. So you all have said the same thing and I can't tell you how much that means to me!

Calimama replied: You're going through a tough time right now. I personally am amazed by your strength.. but you know, you dont have to be strong all the time. It's okay to let go and scream,yell, cry whenever you need to. Plus you have us to vent to!