Okay I have to get this off my chest - (may be a little long)

coasterqueen wrote: I just got a call telling me I'm taking over another HUGE project here at work next year . A few months ago my boss told me I would be planning this national conference in 2006 which I've NEVER done before..so that was already freaking me out. But NOW I have to plan this HUMUNGOUS (sp?) event for December of 2005 too! You've got to be freakin' kidding me. I just can't handle all this work plus all the other stuff I do. I can't get out of it either...unless I want to quit my job.

The reason all this is stressing me is because it was very very hard to w&p for Kylie because there are so many people in this office during sessions and I am the only one who runs this place and most of time the only one here. Also I was required quite often to go on business trips leaving me away from Kylie overnight. Well that's very hard to do when you are nursing...so I always told my boss I couldn't do it...which was not a good thing either.

Well when I finally quit w&p and didn't have to worry about leaving Kylie overnight (which was around 16 to 18 months) a lot of pressure was lifted off my shoulders and I wasn't so stressed all the time. Well obviously I will be having another baby and going through all this stress again. And on top of that added stress I have no choice but to plan these events which adds MORE strees AND I'll have many many trips overnight away from my children. I can't do this if I want to BF....I just can't...I know some can...but I can't. So I'll have to have DH take off to go which means losing vacation time for him to do it which is not good plus his job is keeping him away a lot and it might not be possible at times.

The only good thing is this 2005 event I get compensated by the commission requiring our company to do this...not sure how much (sounded like a nice sum though from the guy's voice). AND as far as the 2006 event I plan to demand my boss to give me a bonus for doing that huge thing....as long as it goes well.

WHY can't I be a SAHM????

favre4fan replied: Arghh I just posted a work fuss too, nowhere near the magnitude of yours but I want to stay home too!!

DansMom replied: Wow, that does sound very stressful. I remember telling someone recently that the thing I would dread most in having another baby is pumping at work again. It's a huge commitment to begin with, but when you have a prominent position in the company it's even harder to make the time and find the space, as you point out. I'm just starting to feel like my old self here at work, and that is mostly due to the freedom of not pumping. Yeah, it sounds like the added responsibility is both an honor and a burden. Maybe it will turn out to be less stressful than you fear (let's hope!). Maybe we working mommies should be in a lottery pool so that we can all retire at once if we win big!

Boys r us replied: I'm sorry!!! It sounds awfully unfair to me and you have a lot going on right now..just take some deep breaths and knwo that somehow, someway..it will all work out!

Maddie&EthansMom replied: I'm sorry. That does sound like a lot to handle. I know I wouldn't be able to do it. Heck, I don't see how most of you WOH. I don't think I could handle that, either.

I bet it will all work out. In the meantime try not to worry about it. The stress is not good for you.

MomToMany replied: I'm so sorry all of that got dumped on you. You are a strong, hard-working Momma. I know I couldn't handle working out of the home like that. I'm awful when it comes to stress; everyone around me feels it.

I know things seemed a lot worse to me while I was PG, and a lot more stressful. I hope it works out for you. You were such a dedicated Momma, W&P how you did for Kylie. THAT is AWESOME. I've never done it, so I don't know how it really feels. But to have that off of your chest, then turn around and have to do it all over again is very courageous and you definitely have my highest respect. What love and dedication to your precious baby. You will make it through it.

We are here for you. I wish there was more I could do to help you out.

Kirstenmumof3 replied: WOW that's a lot to take on right now! I'm sorry you are under so much stress. I don't know what you are going through, I've never really had a career. But I do know that my DH found it difficult to be away from us, when he had to go on business trips. Try not to work yourself up right now and start to break these projects down into smaller ones.

kimberley replied: yikes, you have a full plate. hang in there Karen. you are a tough cookie and will come through it all. remember, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger lol.

A&A'smommy replied: (((((BIG BIG HUGS))))))) I am SOOO sorry sweetie!!! But you will get through it ONE day at a time AND you can always come here and vent!!!

Josie83 replied: Sorry karen, this can't be good for you or the baby. It will get better one day though xx

Kaitlin'smom replied: oh wow thats ALOT to take on, I am sure you will do a great job. Hay maybe after your done and get these bonuses it mgiht be enougth to take off for a few years. Try not to let it stress you out to much. and vent to us when ever you need to

coasterqueen replied:
Yeah I wish! I make too much money to ever be able to take off and bonuses...well they'd never equal a full year's salary. Oh well.

After I posted this my "work load" got bigger...because these 2005 events multiplied 10fold. Oh well. I give up.