Megan's xray tomorrow

coasterqueen wrote: I've been balling all night and pretty much all this morning about Megan's xray tomorrow. I think why I'm so afraid most of all is because Kylie had to go through a bunch of grueling xrays at 2.5 months because she had a very high fever and was sick and they were trying to figure out what was going on. So I still have those visions in my head.

The nurse called yesterday to talk to me about the procedure again and to get Megan preregistered. She proceeded to tell me that Megan will have to be there for up to 4 hours after they do the first xray of the barium swallow so they can follow the barium through her small bowel. 4 hours!!! She has to have intermittant xrays during this whole time. I can't be in there while they are taking them either because I'm nursing and they won't let me be exposed to the xrays. They said they'll put her in this turkey baster like thing and strap her down. Dh will be above her head and will feed her the bottle of barium. So he can't even hold her and comfort her while he's giving her that crap! She's going to be so scared to death...gosh I just can't keep the tears away. I feel so awful.

I just don't know how we are going to get through tonight and tomorrow morning. I'm sitting here trying to figure out how I'm going to keep her awake til 3:30 am, which will be her last and then DH will keep her from 4 am til we leave at 8 am. The problem is she sleeps from 9:30 pm to 2:30 am and then nurses at 2:30 and goes back to sleep til 4 am and then nurses non stop from 4 am til about 7 am. So of course she nurses during the entire time she's not going to be able to tomorrow. I guess I'm going to try to keep her awake most of the night trying to get her to nurse during that entire time so she'll (PRAYING) sleep from 4 am til we get there.

Sorry to whine about this again. I'm just feel so awful about all of this and I'm so sick to my stomach worrying about it that I feel like throwing up. You know if she was bottle fed this wouldn't be so much of an issue.

amynicole21 replied: I'm sorry Karen! I know you are freaked. I'll be keeping both Megan and you in my thoughts tomorrow.

Strange that a nursing Mom can't be exposed but the baby that she's nursing can be???

Kaitlin'smom replied: Oh Karen just reading that makes me cry, I cant imiginge what you rhaving to go through. I hate to ask but what if she wont drink that stuff then what? sorry I know you dont what to think about it. I will be thinking of you tomorrow and hope things go smooth and they figure this thing out. (((BIG HUGS)))

Maddie&EthansMom replied: Oh Karen!!! How AWFUL!! I know you must be out of your mind with worry. I know I would be. You are all in my thoughts. Give Megan a big hug from me. She will be okay. The hardest part is not knowing.

jcc64 replied: I would be exactly the same way, Karen. I know it will be exceedingly difficult for all of you, but keep reminding yourself the info is necessary, and little Megan will have no memory of it whatsoever in the long run. Not so for you, of course, but you're doing the right thing for her. I went through this with Noah- not the same kind of test- he had to have a lot of cardiac testing b/c of a small hole in his heart, but I can vividly remember hearing his screams from the waiting area (I was also kept out b/c of bf).
Be strong, it'll be over soon. In the meantime- hugs to you all.

Jamielou replied: Im sorry i would be the same way I hope everything goes good in the morning and she does well with the x-rays. I would be the same way Laney had to have them on her lungs and her head on two occasions and it was hard to hold her down while she was screaming and every time i pull in to the peds office she screams because she knows what docs do... they said she would outgrow it. I think everything will be fine

booey2 replied: All I can offer is hugs and prayers that thing go smoothly.

amymom replied: Lots of hugs. I felt the same way when Mary Beth had her barium test. Please don't worry (yeah right!) Ok, please don't let the worring get to you. Do some fun family stuff tonight and try to put it out of your mind for a little while. (I know easier said than done!)

gr33n3y3z replied: I dont know what to say ..... only We have been there 12 times in Erins first year of life with her for her eye surgeries and you just feel so helpless and your mind starts to wonder but its for the best to see if something is wrong.
I hope everything goes fast tomorrow for all of you.
Hang in there
(((((( Karen )))))))

RayaJoysmommy replied: I'm so sorry!! I'm tearing up just reading about it! I pray everything is well for you and for Megan.
One way to look at being seperated from her for the tests is that she won't associate you with them. I'm sorry I know that isn't any help.

Emeraldsmom replied: Oh I am so sorry for you guys. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. That must be so hard. I hope everything goes okay.

Josie83 replied: I'm so sorry, Karen I know how hard this will be for both you and Megan. But, at least you know that it is all for a good cause and should hopefully give you some answers about what's up with her . . . I hope you can be strong tomorrow. You're in my thoughts and prayers xx

kit_kats_mom replied: That sounds miserable all around Karen. However, she may suprise you. Lauren was super good at the hospital and she only really fussed when they were putting in the IV's. Try not to let her know how worried you are about the situation. Kid's have a way of picking up on our stress and that causes them to be more stressed.

After all of this, it will be a relief to know what is causing her to be so sad. And if it means she feels better and you get more rest, then it's totally worth it.

mama3x replied: Karen, I have never seen a barium test before but it sounds terrible. I've been through x-rays with my older DS and it's heartbreaking to see.

I am so sorry that Megan has to go through this and that it's affecting you so but at least it's for getting some answers and not just a random procedure. And I agree with some of the others: she may surprise you.

Take good care and update us ok?

A&A'smommy replied: OH HUN that is going to be VERY tough but you guys will get through it and it will be worth it to get her tummy better!!!! (((((BIGGEST HUGS))))) I will be thinking about you all day tomorrow and praying for your sanity and that Megan will do well so it wont be so hard on you!!

amymom replied: I have been thinking about you all morning. I hope all is going well.