Marie...

MommyToAshley wrote: How are you doing? Now that I read that question, it sounds like a dumb question. But, I just wanted to let you know that we are thinking of you and here if you need us.

coasterqueen replied: I agree with Dee Dee. Please know we are thinking of you and are here for you.

CantWait replied: Thank you

Yesterday was SUPER hard, I literally cried all day long by myself. DH had to work, the kids were at school and I couldn't do anything.

Today was better, less crying. I started my pills today, so we're officially under one year till we can ttc again hopefully.

I've just been crazy writting the last couple days, haven't been able to do much. I'm scared that I'm going to have the huge wave of pain like the last d/c but so far I'm just a little tender.

I'm very numb and edgy right now. I kind of just don't want to do anything. We have another family that's posted here with us that will be moving into our compound soon, they are currently 10 weeks pregnant, and I just don't know how I'm going to handle it. Even our friends a couple houses down have a 1 year old and it's killing me

I just want to scream, and kick and cry. I think if I knew it was just a m/c and I could try again in a month I'd be more alright with it, but 12 months is just such a long time, and when I think that I should be having our first angel three months, wow. I just don't want to be a burden to anyone with my problems or feel like I'm bringing anyone down. This one is just going to take a bit more time to get over.

Insanemomof3 replied: So sorry Marie.

MommyToAshley replied: Please don't feel like you are bringing anyone down -- we're not only here for the good times, we're here to lend a shoulder to cry on too.

I'm so sorry. I only wish I could say or do more.

ZandersMama replied: never feel like you are a burdon, thats why we are here. we all come here with our problems as well as our joys. we are here to see you through to your joys.

CantWait replied: HER FB status: I loved the look on my baby girls face when she saw her baby

HIS FB Status: Got to hear my second babies heartbeat today


Seriously it kills me.

my2monkeyboys replied: Marie, it's more than ok for you to take time to grieve. No one would expect you to be back to your old self if one of your boys had passed away, and with what all you've been through the last year you deserve and need time to heal.
If other babies/pregnant women are hard to be around right now, then don't be. You can always send a little note to your friends and let them know what is going on (if they don't already) so they won't feel snubbed, but don't force yourself into situations that will make it harder on your self.

Take time, grieve, heal. Then you will be able to enjoy others and yourself again.

A&A'smommy replied: Oh marie I'm so sorry but you shouldn't feel like you are bringing anyone down by talking about you KNOW we are here for you and even if you just wanted to talk on messenger or something I would sit there and talk to you if it would help you get it out we care about you and I'm so sorry you are in SO much pain!!!!!

amymom replied: Words can not take away your pain. Please know we are all here to listen anytime you need us.

boyohboyohboy replied: marie you are in my prayers

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