Last day at home alone with my baby - *sob*

amynicole21 wrote: I return to work on Wednesday, but I'm sending Nora to daycare Mon and Tues for half days to ease her (and me) into it. I'm so freaked out about her going to daycare... she's got some little quirks that I'm not sure they'll accomodate. She only sleeps upright in her bouncy seat, and I don't know if they have them there! DH mentioned buying one for her at daycare... might look into that.

Also, she's finally taking a bottle, but really only taking it from ME about 75% of the time. She won't take it from DH at all, and refused it from both of us last night. She gets very worked up when DH tries to give her one, so I can only imagine what will happen when a complete stranger tries to give her one. The thought of my baby, who never cries unless she is in pain or terribly terribly upset, crying and hungry in the arms of a stranger makes my heart break. I'm about to start crying myself right now just thinking about it.

And since she's such a patient and quiet baby, I worry that she'll be ignored a lot. I hope that's not the case. Sophia required so much attention that I always KNEW she was being held or played with all day long at daycare just to keep her quiet

Deep in my heart I know that I'm being irrational and that she'll do great, but I hate giving up responsibility for her. I'M the one who she cries for, I'M the one who knows how to comfort her best, and I'M the one who is going to miss her the most. Waaaaaaaaaaaah.

booey2 replied: Awe, hang in there, she will do fine (and so will you). The first couple of days are always the hardest. I hated going back to work after I had Matthew and was kinda looking forward to it after Thomas but I wish and dream and yearn to be home with them now. It will get better.

Kaitlin'smom replied: I know how you feel. I do hate leaving Kait, but I know she loves it there. this week has been ruff I thnk she was a bit confused having me 4 days then back to the sitters, she has not wanted to go at all this week breaks my heart she is alwyas fine when I drop her off ...sorry

she and you will be okay it will just take time to get used to it.

stanleygirl replied: I have not been through this, but I wanted to give you a big
I hope her first day goes great!

coasterqueen replied: Hon, you aren't irrational at all about this! If you are I am too.

This is my first week back and it's been very very hard. Megan isn't taking a bottle at all and she's screaming almost the entire time she's there and she's only been there 4 hours each day. I can't imagine what it will be like next week when I go full days.

As it is now if she won't take bottles DH and I are going to have to work something out. I obviously can't afford to quit work so DH said he'd take off work 3 times a day to bring her to me at work so I can nurse her. NOT a good solution whatsoever but I guess we'll do what we need to. SIGH.

I ache every morning when I drop her off and she cries and ache even more when I pick her up and Terri tells me she "cried A LOT!". I just keep thinking she's crying wondering where I'm at.

Sorry I know I'm not making you feel better. Just give it time, though, she may suprise you. Easier said than done though.

I do feel fortunate that Terri is an at-home dcp and so whatever Megan needed for comfort she either went out and bought this week or I bought. Megan requires a certain type of swing to be happy so Terri went out and bought the $100 swing. She also bought her a bunch of other things that Megan likes for her comfort. This woman gets paid nil compared to other dcp's and she did it. I told her I would but she wanted to do it. I also bought things like a swaddle blanket, and other little things she needed for comfort. Still not helping us though. If I could duplicate my self or my boobs I would so she could have those there with her too.

((HUGS)) I'm here for you because I know exactly what you are going through. Just try to remain calm and see how it goes next week. I'm hoping she suprises you .

jem0622 replied: Lots of hugs.

Josie83 replied: I'm so sorry Amy I know how difficult it can be - have you spoken about your worries with the person whose looking after her? xx

DansMom replied:
Oh Amy and Karen, you guys are breaking my heart! I remember how much I hated going back to work. It's totally unnatural to leave your little baby---necessary, doable, survivable, yes---but it's hard.

ediep replied: awwwww, (((((HUGS)))))) to you Amy!

I sure hope it turns out better than you are anticipatitng!!! I am sure it must be sooo hard!!

A&A'smommy replied: I don't think your being irrational i think what your feeling is NORMAL and it is scary sending your tiny baby to daycare... she will be fine though!!! ((((((HUGS)))))

3_call_me_mama replied: Hugs to you Amy! Tell that baby girl to make some noise, just incase:) I bet she'l be fine.. she's got Sophia to watch out for her right? Maybe try extra hard the next couple days to get other people to give her a bottle, just so that she isn't so upset when Monday comes. (I have a friend that has the same issue with her daughter. Won't take a bottle for anyone but her.. she's still trying to figure it out:( ) Good luck to you, i'll be thinking of you:)

kimberley replied: (((hugs)))) hon. that has to be hard take it slow and i am sure you will both adjust in no time. many, many hugs to you in the meantime.

Emeraldsmom replied: Oh I am so sorry. Emerald just started daycare 2 weeks ago. I was feeling the same as you. It must be harder on you though because Nora is a lot younger than Emerald. I felt so guilty leaving her. What I kept telling myself was that I am not the only one who leaves my child in daycare. Lots of people do. That helped me feel a little better. I hope it goes okay. You will be in my thoughts.
Let us know how it goes.

jcc64 replied: I got a big lump in my throat reading your post, Amy, and yours too, Karen. I know it'll get better over time, but that doesn't help right now, does it? Big hugs girls.

MommyToAshley replied:
Both you and Karen have me in tears. I don't have any advice, but I'll share my box of kleenex with you.

I really hope that she surprises you. It might sound odd, but she might take a bottle better from a stranger. At home, she probably knows you are still there and wants the bottle from you and not DH. And, just think how much progress you have made... it wasn't too long ago that she wouldn't take a bottle at all.

Hang in there and I hope the trial run on Monday and Tuesday give you some peace of mind.

RayaJoysmommy replied: I know how you feel. The first day I took Raya to day care I was a wreck and she was fine. I had a lot of faith in the provider I left her with. I'm not sure from your post that you do, I hope I'm wrong!! I think that faith helps a great deal!!

Just a thought have you tried to see if she would sit in her bouncy seat and take the bottle from Sophia? My neice and Raya's young aunts and uncles (3,8 & 12) love to help with her.

Mostly I wanted to send you

huggybugboy replied: aww...i feel ya. I have to start back to work part time tomorrow. It's not so bad now but in august I have to go back to school full time and student teaching. Im very scared about that but thankful that Ive gotten this much time with him. Good luck!