Just wanted to thank you

Danalana wrote: It's hard to try to integrate into a new community, but yall made it so easy for me. You've been supportive and made me feel accepted. I might not be posting much for a while, because I have a feeling the hurt would be talking more than anything. As much as I love seeing your pictures and hearing stories, it's so hard when I can't have it too. I hope that doesn't sound selfish, because I don't mean for it to. I probably should have thought of that when I joined this board, huh? I guess I just thought I would have a baby...
I love you ladies (and gentlemen ) I appreciate your kindness and willingness to take me in. So, I'll be around...just probably not talking much. I don't feel like I'd have a lot to contribute, you know?
Anyway, thank you for being wonderful. And for not making me feel out of place with all you mothers and fathers.

amymom replied:

Mommy2Isabella replied: Hope to see you back around before too long, You will be missed!

MyBabeMaddie replied: Please don't feel like you don't contribute to the boards, because you do

MoonMama replied: I will miss you around here so much. But like I told you I do understand. Just know I'm here for you hun, you can call me anytime.

Danalana replied: Oh, I'm not going to all-out leave. I like you people too much...
Pretty much all I have to add here is humor, and I don't feel funny right now...and maybe not for a long while. I don't feel like faking it, either, so that's all I have. I can't really participate in parenting discussions or anything, so there's not a lot left. I'm not really leaving...in fact, if you were to PM me, I can pretty much guarantee that I would answer it that day...or the next. Am I making sense?

Mommy2Isabella replied: That makes sense to me.

Crystalina replied: Just do what you have to do. Take care of yourself and don't give up being a mommy.

luvbug00 replied:

A&A'smommy replied: Your such a sweetheart and I'm SOO sorry you are going through this!!! We definitly need to keep in touch I have enjoyed talking to you!! Take all the time you need to heal!!

Danalana replied: thank you

Kaitlin'smom replied: take care of you

CantWait replied:

jcc64 replied: Oh Dana, I've been away and I just read the news. I am so very sorry for your loss. I know there aren't too many things anyone can say to make you feel better right now, but just understand that there are many many opportunities for the sun to shine once again on you. So many of us have been where you are right now, and we all went on to realize our dreams of motherhood, one way or the other. When you want something so badly, every step backwards seems insurmountable, but you will get through this, and someday, you'll recharge and be ready to take a chance again. Loving something or someone that much is never without risk- otherwise it wouldn't be worth it, kwim? But that doesn't mean you shouldn't throw your hat back in the ring out of fear or self preservation.
There are many routes to motherhood. Someday, some way, you will realize your dream. In the meantime, we are here for you- and please don't leave- you are a very important part of our community.

~Roo'sMama~ replied:

lovemy2 replied: Totally understandable Dana, don't be a stranger though and please take care of yourself. You will be sorely missed....many hugs and prayers that you may heal and you can get some answers from your OB when you are ready - there are things to help you stay pregnant so don't give up yet.

sunrosejenn replied:

indywndy_04 replied: You heal honey and PM me anytime!! I will always be here for you and I feel as if we have bonded in some way. You are a very special, caring person and we all love you very much!!

Calimama replied: If you ever need to talk, you know where I am hun.

MotherForever2043 replied:
I couldn't say it better myself.
We are all here for you Dana.

Danalana replied: My mother called me today...she said I sound depressed. Well, let's see...in the last 5 months, I have miscarried twice and found out that my insurance doesn't give a crap about what I need. To say the least, the last 5 months have been hellish for me. And then she like, "I'm here if you need to talk"...since when? We've never talked. She said my father called her, wondering why I wasn't at church on Sunday (he just started going in the last few months), so she told him what happened. Guess what? He's mad at me for not calling him!! He never wanted anything to do with me my whole flippin' life, caring about alcohol and drugs more than anything else. Now he expects that we have this close relationship? Are you kidding me? I can't handle somebody being angry with me right now...seriously

MyBrownEyedBoy replied: Oh, Dana. Some people when they give up the booze and find religion assume that others can simply forget the hurt they caused. Your father isn't intentionally being mean, he's just clueless. I'm sorry for all you've been through since December. And we're not mad at you. Rage, weep, vent, whatever you need to do. We can take it. Hugs to you my virtual friend.

Danalana replied: I'm not holding a grudge against him...I do love him. He is my father, you know? But he hasn't given up anything. When i first moved back here, i lived with him and his wife for a year...i would have to walk by passed-out drug dealers on the way to the bathroom at night. it's still going on, too. So, yeah...he wants both worlds. I don't know him.

amymom replied: Gosh Dana, I am sorry your Dad is being like that.

sparkys2boys replied: Dana sounds like you have an awful lot going on right now and we do understand if u need time away. When you are ready will be here as always. Dont go up hope, and if you ever need a thing PM me and we can talk.

Danalana replied: I appreciate that...