I'm feeling sad right now

5littleladies wrote: Hey everyone-I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately, we've just had a lot going on around here and I haven't had a lot of extra time to post, but I need somewhere to talk so here I am.

Valentine's day is really hard for me. It would have been my baby's due date and my baby's first birthday would have been coming up. It's hard enough to know within myself that my baby isn't here but to have constant reminders of the day he would have been here makes it all that much harder. Last year was very hard-I thought this year would have been easier and I guess in a way it is because Lissie is here and she has helped heal the hurt, but it is still so very painful. Jas was talking about getting me something for Valentine's day yesterday and I just broke down-I cried for awhile and he held me and I felt better but I'm still sad. I miss my baby.

kayla's mama replied: I don't know your whole story but I can sympathize with you.

It was hard on me when my baby's due date came around and when it would have been 1. I just look at the baby I have now and it takes some of the pain away. Hope your days get better and we are always here for you

5littleladies replied:
It's so hard isn't it?

I miscarried at around 12 weeks in August of '04. The baby just stopped developing. I don't technically know what my baby was, but my husband has a strong feeling that it was a boy and when my husband gets strong feelings about things I've learned to trust them. So we think of the baby as our little Benjamin-the only boy in our brood.

mommymonster replied: Not sure if there ever is any "right" thing to say, but I will have you and your family in my prayers.

kayla's mama replied:

Oh man,

You are in my thoughts and prayers

luvmykids replied: I'm so sorry, just wanted to give

CAMSMOM1 replied: Jennifer, I'm so sorry sweetie, I can imagine how difficult this time of year is for you.

My Mom, still talks about the baby she lost. My parents were planning on having 3 children, and my Dad would get snipped. (sorry, I don't know the correct term for that is.) So, when my Mom got PG for the 3rd time, they were excited! She was 5 months along, and started to have alot of problems. She ended up having to deliver, to a still born baby. It was a little boy. My Mom still gets choked up talking about it.

But she tells me this story all the time, because if that baby would've survived, then they wouldn't have had ME! I'm the youngest. She tells me, that she believes everything happens for a reason. And even though she misses her son, and thinks about him, she knows that God had other plans for our family, and that included me.

I thought I could share this story with you. It's been 25 years, and my Mom still cherishes her baby boy, but has a better understanding of why it happened now.

And I know that Benjermin, will always be a special place in your heart. And you should remember him, and let his memory live on in your spirit. And know that you have a special angel in heaven who is looking over his parents & sister.

We're here for you sweetie. If you ever need someone to talk to, PM me.



Ann

A&A'smommy replied: I'm sorry sweetie!!

5littleladies replied:
Thank you for sharing that.

Sarah&Mackenzie replied: Just want to give you a

amymom replied: Thinking of you. I have two angels and totally understand the loss. Please share anytime.

kimberley replied: the significant days are always difficult. it has been nearly 3yrs since our angel left us and i still feel the pain of what could have been. what helps is that i planted a rose bush on the EDD and i just take my quiet time there when i am feeling down. i also hold the kids a little closer that day. especially Jade because she wouldn't be here if things were different and i thank God she is. many hugs to you

~Roo'sMama~ replied: I'm sorry Jen.

mysweetpeasWil&Wes replied: I'm sorry too Jen...you're in my thoughts.

Maddie&EthansMom replied: Jen I feel so bad for you. Your post made me cry. I wish I knew the right words to say to make you feel better. Just know you are in my prayers, okay hun? You'll make it thru this next week. You have a beautiful family and a wonderful and caring husband to help get you thru the tough times.

My2Beauties replied: I am so sorry! I don't know the right words to say but we are here for you and I wanted to give you many many