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coasterqueen wrote: Hi everyone. I'm back from my aunt's funeral and just wanted to thank you all for your prayers and thoughts for me and my family. It was a horrible experience and has emotionally drained me more than I thought it would. I've lost close loved ones before but when someone takes their own life it seems to be a different grieving experience. I asked my husband last night if these awful images and sad feelings were ever going to go away and he said "not until you get closure from this". Well even if we get answers as to what happened and why she decided to take her own life, I don't think I can ever feel closure not having those answers from my aunt.

Anyways, thank you again. I'm not sure how much I'm going to post here for now. I'm back at work today only because I have no time left to take off right now. I feel numb, drained and I just don't know how cheery I can be so I am going to lurk for now. At the moment it just feels like it's impossible to function. I try to look at my children to give me what I need to go on but today it just seems really hard.

moped replied: I can't imagine how you must be feeling......................everyday will get better

stanleygirl replied: No words can express how sorry I am

My2Beauties replied: Karen again I am sorry for your loss. I hope you can get some answers so you can get closure but I know how hard that may be! We are here hon, if you need anything, just let us know, you can PM me if you don't feel like posting - vent away to me, I am here for you!

mommy_loves_chase replied: feel better

Kaitlin'smom replied: Oh Karen its hard I know espically with out answers. I lost a dear friend to what they called susicide, but it might have been homicide they did not investigate any further since there was no visiable sign of foul play. It broke my heart he was a great guy, always happy, and very talented. Lost touch when he we to off to school and the a year later he dies. It still is hearbreaking to think of him. I know its not the same, we are all hear for you. PM me if you need to vent or talk.

Sarah&Mackenzie replied: Karen I hope things get better soon, I am so sorry for your loss!!

Boys r us replied: Oh Karen, Suicide is so hard, there are so many mixed feelings for those of us left behind. Take all of the time you need to get yourself thru this hun, we certainly all understand! We're here for you anytime you need us though!

MommyToAshley replied: Karen, it just breaks my heart to read your post. I can't imagine how you must be feeling. You are such a dear friend and caring person, I wish I could say or do something to make it all better for you.

I hope you are able to find a way to get some closure. Please take the time to be with your family and grieve. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

kimberley replied: take all the time you need and know we are here for you when you are ready. continued p&pt to you and your family!

DansMom replied: Karen, I've been thinking of you Take it one day at a time. This kind of crisis is life-altering. 8 years later, I'm still haunted by the suicide of my beloved boss, whose office I now inhabit, and I still cringe when I imagine the moment of her death. As time goes on, do your best to remember the good times. When you feel up to it, get out any photos you have of her smiling and living life, and remember her that way.

Maddie&EthansMom replied:

Karen...from the bottom of my heart I am so sorry. I want you to have closure, peace of mind and understanding from this. I hope you find it. I'm going to miss your cheery self around here.

amynicole21 replied: Welcome back Karen. Take all the time you need

A&A'smommy replied: (((((BIG HUGS)))) I'm so sorry sweetheart I cannot even amagine how hard that must be for you and your family!!! I'm sending LOTS of P&PT's your way!!