I at this point don't know what to say. - Honest oppinons please!

mummy2girls wrote: I want you all to be honest.....

I have been struggling with a subjest with my sister lately. you see for those who don't know she is an assistant nurse and works in the pediatric ward, NICU, and PICU. She has been bugging me to go to school to work towards being an assistant nurse and then work with Children. I love working with kids but I find it really fullfilling to work with disabled kids. Anyways. I have told her over and over again to please not push this subject. I could not mentally or emotionally work with kids in the peds ward, NICU or PICU. Because of losing Jordan the way I did has affected me and always will. I have learned to move on and learn to handle the pain of not having my precious baby with me. I think if i was near dieing kids and such i would go nuts! It scares me also about how i can handle it and if i can because she has told me many times she has taken care of patients with the disease Jordan had and that a couple were actually dieing. I dont know why she thinks i can handle something like that. Yes i work with disabled kids but its different than dieing infants and kids. I dont know what else to say to her to stop her from saying and bugging me the way she has. Plus the hospital she wants me to work in in the exact same one I lost Jordan in. I am mad at a few nurses and how i was treated after i lost my baby. When jordan was in surgery to get his organs out ( i donated his heart) we were waiting in the family room. Well my friend went to get a pillow from a room that i stayed in while i slept there and the nurse grabbed it away and said...you dont need that pillow anymore. another mom needs it more! I was so saddned to hear this. Now if that was actually me they said it too i would of freaked!!!!!!! I just cant emotionally go back into that section of the hospital...

Am i wrong to feel this way?

Sorry this is so long but i had to let it out...

paradisemommy replied: you are not at all wrong for feeling the way that you do and if you ask me, your sister sounds pretty heartless if she can't see where you are coming from. i guess you just have to keep telling her nicely - no thanks and that your current job is really fulfilling to you and that you don't want to switch occupations. sorry i can't be more help..

pinka_star replied: No way, you're not wrong at all for feeling this way. I think your sister is being heartless and not realizing how hard it is for you. I'm really sorry!!!

aspenblue1 replied: I don't think you are wrong for feeling that way. I think you sister is wrong for not understand your feelings and respecting them.

Kaitlin'smom replied: I think your sister needs a reality check and a swift kick in the you know what (just like mine does). I would just tell her maybe in a very firm voice that your happy with your job and your not about to change things now.

MylittlePaige replied: I don't know your background that much but in the few posts I have read that have mentioned your sister it sounds like she is really a hurtful self centered person. Just because this type of job works well for her doesn't mean it would work well for you. If I was in your shoes and had been through the pain of losing my child I don't think I could handle it as well. Who am I kidding I have never had to deal with the loss of a child and I still couldn't do this job. I think you should just tell your sis that you are VERY happy in your current job and that you find it extremely fulfilling to work with the disabled children that you already work with. Also there are some other things that are a real benefit to your current job. You are able to take Jenna with you to work everyday right? I don't think if I had that opportunity to take Paige with me to work I would ever want to give that up. That just my two cents but I hope it helps. Hugs to you and to your sis.
Alli and Paige

kimberley replied: IMO, you should just be straight and firm with your sister. say NO and let her know it is NOT up for debate. have you expressed to her how things she says hurts you? if you have, then she is an insensitive person who you shouldn't deal with at all. (((hugs))))

jen replied: Tell your sister to BUD OUT or go jump in a lake. She is so cold and heartless and unsympathetic to you. You have every right to feel the way you do and it is very very normal. I am so sorry you lost Jordan and I am even sorrier that your sister won't let you grieve him and understand you.

Tell her to just leave you alone. She doesn't know what she is talking about and needs to work on opening her mind and heart.

Hang in There sweetie! You are such a loving, good person, you deserve so much better than dealing with your mean sister! (((((((HUGS)))))))

Boys r us replied: You have every right to feel this way!!!
maybe she thinks that being there and helping other parents who are in a situation similar to the one you were in will somehow help you. I'm sure she doesn't mean to hurt you or harrass you...but once you've said ENOUGH, then she should respect you and realize that her dreams are not same as your own!

Lily replied: I have to give you first. Second, you have every right to feel the way you do and if your sister can't see that and can't see your pain is still there and still fresh then maybe you need to consider cutting her off from you for awhile. My mom lost my baby sis at 5 months old back in 1987 and the pain is still almost unbearable to this day. She will never be the same. And I swear if anyone ever told her to get over it I'd kick the living "you know what" out of them. You do what you know is right for YOU. And seriously, if she won't shut up when you are telling her you don't want to hear about it then maybe you need to yell at her and say "SHUT UP! Your opinion is not welcome!" I know it's harsh but sounds like harsh is what she needs.

A&A'smommy replied: I think you have a right to feel that way! Maybe you should tell her how you feel, get it all of your chest. (((((BIG HUGS)))))

coasterqueen replied: No I don't think you are wrong in feeling this way and you should be very honest with your sister about it. Have you told her what you told us? If not, do. Maybe she will stop pushing then. ((HUGS))