I Need to Vent/Cry

Kirstenmumof3 wrote: Okay I understand that Spencer is having a really rough time right now, I understand that he is in a lot of pain and that he needs me for everything from bathing to going to the bathroom. But today I'm just so frustrated! I'm sitting here in the dark because he doesn't want the lights on, so I can't read the book I brought to read. He doesn't want the TV on because it bothers him. And he says my typing on the computer is starting to annoy him. He doesn't want me to leave him and that's understandable, but I do need to eat! I'm just at my whits end right now and everything I suggest to help him cope, playing games, checking his email, watching movies, doing his actitivty books, he just screams at me. I know he is frustrating, but this is really starting to get to me. Last night he didn't want me to leave until 11:00, which is kinda late to be walking around at night. So I explained that too him, but then he told me to take a taxi. Sure I could do that, but I didn't have any money for a cab and Ronald McDonald House is only 3 blocks away from the hospital. I'm so DARN frustrated!

Okay, I'm done, thanks for letting me vent.

C&K*s Mommie replied: Vent away, vent away, vent away. Get it all out.



We are here for you.

MamaJAM replied: I wish there was something profound I could say to help you get through this. But all I have are tons of and prayers for you all to get through this.

ediep replied: oh Kirsten, it must be so hard to be doing this alone...... Vent all you want!!

to you and Spencer

Insanemomof3 replied:

~~*Missi*~~ replied: dont know what to say except vent vent vent away and HUGS to you

CAMSMOM1 replied: I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you. Not only is your little guy in pain, but you are tired and restless. I understand you want to be by his side, as any mother would, but you need to take care of yourself too. Even if it's for 30 min. outside in the fresh air, having a bite to eat, and relaxing. Maybe if you tell him, Mommy is going to take a break at 10:00am, and at 3:00pm...then he can know when to expect you to go for a little while. You are doing such an excellent job. But you can't neglect yourself in the process. 30 min. by yourself can do wonders. And you know he's in good hands when you take a quick break. Maybe schedule your break around his napping/sleeping times. I just want you to take care as well.

Edward's Mommy replied: We want to hear how he's doing, but we also want to hear how you're doing. And if you need to vent, we are all here to listen to you and we are all supporting you! I hope you can get some time to yourself so you can regain yourself and just breathe for a moment. I would say to take time to relax, but I don't imagine that is easy to do right now. But try for yourself and for him. We're all here for you!!

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mummy2girls replied: (((HUGS)))) my dear! I am so sorry:( I can only imagine how frustrated that is. i didnt experience that because Jordan was a newborn so its not like he can voice his oppinion to me...so i was able to take breaks. But yes you do need a break even if its onlyf or 10 minutes. Maby tell him you need to use the washrooma nd then just kinda sit in there take a few deep breaths and then go back out to see him. He is going through alot and we can only imagine what he truely is feeling. As hard as it is just let him yell, scream and vent...Because it probably is touigh for him to be cooped in an isolation room and stcuk in bed:( just offer him hugs kissses and anthing else you can give him. I hope soon it will get better(((HUGS)))Remember im here if you need to talk...

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Crystalina replied: I don't know your whole story but it sounds like you can really use a

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MyBrownEyedBoy replied: Kirsten, when Logan was in PICU after surgery I snuck out and got online at least 2 or 3 times a day. I had to. Spencer is frustrated and not feeling well and scared. And you probably are too. Have you thought of a reading lamp? That way the lights could still be off, but you could read. Especially if he's napping. Which it doesn't sound like he's doing much of. Anyway, hugs to you.

Kirstenmumof3 replied: Thank You everyone! You all had some wonderful suggestions and I think it's time that I get Spencer and I on a routine. I do need to start taking care of myself, because I am the only one he has right now.

Maddie&EthansMom replied: I'm glad you are coming here to vent. It's healthy not to bottle this up. You need to talk about these things....this is good. I'm sorry you are frustrated, though. Try getting lots of sunshine and fresh air. You'll be okay. This won't last forever.

jacobsmama replied: anytime.

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CantWait replied: That's what we're here for, vent away girl

luvmykids replied: My kids frustrate me enough under normal circumstances, I can't imagine what this is like for you and him both! You've held up so well, you really encourage me.

We are always here, vent anytime. I would start thinking you weren't human if you didn't need to vent during a time like this!

gr33n3y3z replied:
Hang in there hun just a little longer

Bee_Kay replied:
ITA with Monica.

Somtimes I get so frustrated at little things in life and I come running here to whine about it.
I can't imagine the stress you are under

So, of course you are going to have your moments.