God

Halo42101 wrote: I asked God to forgive me this morning when I couldn't sleep because I
know in my heart it is not His fault that the baby didn't make it.  Our obgyn
said that it wasn't anyone's fault that I miscarried.  Something was wrong
with the pregnancy and it could have been for a number of reasons.  I had a
bad feeling all along that I could miscarry this baby too.  I was just trying
to keep positive, so I wouldn't stress as much.  I realized that it is easier
to blame God when you are mad about something awful that has happened because that is apart of our sinful nature.  I apologized to God for that.  It's
funny because when something good or great happens, we rejoice in God's
blessing.  It is just not right to blame God whenever bad things happen.  He
is there for us regardless, and when bad times happen, that is when we need
Him the most.
That is what I have figured out this morning.  God was there for me as
I know He will continue to be during my difficult days ahead.  I pray that
God blesses you & your families and that all is well for you.

Hugs & love from,
Jessi      

MyLuvBugs replied: Your DR. was right sweetie. It's not anyones fault. It's not God's fault, and it especially IS NOT your fault. Don't ever think that it is. Ok? It's really sucks, but sometimes it just happens. But those two babies will be waiting for you someday. And you WILL have a healthy happy baby here soon. Just close your eyes and picture it. Picture a pretty little chubby angel being placed into your arms for the first time, and how amazing that will feel for you and your husband. You're going to be a mommy, and a wonderful mommy, just keep imagining your baby and it will happen.

Halo42101 replied: I am imagining it. I can almost feel it.

MyLuvBugs replied:
And it's ok to cry and mourn sweetie. You've been through a lot recently. Just take your time, and keep your eye on the prize so to speak. You want a healthy happy baby, so just keep picturing it and it will happen. Just be strong and think positive.

mommymonster replied: You really seem to be a wonderful person and I have all the faith that you will be blessed, remember that God blesses his chidren in many ways, some alittle more subtle than others, just keep your heart open.

luvmykids replied: Jessi,
I personally happen to share your belief and I know it is very easy to blame God for things we don't understand. I'm so happy to hear you say that you know He was, is, and will always be there for you. There are many blessings in store for you, God has a plan and your prayers are not in vain.

Halo42101 replied: Thank you all for everything. You have been so great to me through all of this. It helps to know you are here and that you share your thoughts and feelings with me. God bless & be with you all.

Hugs & love from,
Jessi & DH, Theron <---- Sounds like Aaron but with a Th on the front. ;-)

~Roo'sMama~ replied:

CAMSMOM1 replied: I really felt like sharing this verse with you.

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, "Plans for good and not evil. For a hope and a future."


Remember that God loves you, he wants to bless you. That his ways are higher than our ways, and his thoughts are higher than our thoughts. That every good and perfect gift is from the Lord. We may never understand his thoughts complete or his ways, but we know that he is the one that carries us through.


I know I've shared this story before, but when my Mother & Father were expecting their 3rd child, they were so excited. But at 5 months, she lost her baby boy. She was really upset. But because my parents were only planning on having 3 children, they decided to try again. Very shortly after this, they concieved ME! And now she realizes why it happened, and that I would've never been born if things turn out the other way. She still loves her little boy, but she has a glimpse on why it happened, and is thankful for God's blessings. He never gives you anything you can't handle. He is our rock and our place of refuge. Just ask, and the door will be opened for you...seek and you will find. I know that he gives us the desires of our hearts, so in his timing, you will be a mother. Keep the faith sweetie. And if you ever need to talk, just PM me.

Ann

C&K*s Mommie replied: Everyone has said such eloquent things, and I could not trump their words.

I wanted to offer hugs to you in place of words~~

~~*Missi*~~ replied: I know what you mean. With a beautiful dd and three angels watching us now I don't understand somedays why he took my babies. I saw thier HB I saw thier profiles why why.... I know he has a reason I just don't know it yet.

Good luck
Missi

jacobsmama replied: Please know I'm here for you in this very difficult time.

Halo42101 replied: I am just so grateful that I found this msg. board. I know that without my baby in Heaven, I wouldn't have found it. I am having a very hard day today. Everything is making me cry and I feel so empty inside. I am exhausted but I can't sleep. Yesterday, my computer broke down on me, so I am without a computer for a while. My DH is making plans to either repair it or buy a new one for me. In the mean time, he said I am more than welcome to use his. He as been very good to me through all of this but I know there has been times (like this morning) that I have been awful to him. I feel so bad. I feel lost a lot now. I am trying my best to find whatever it is that makes me happy or feel good. Hearing your personal stories about miscarriage and how you conceived again after helps a lot. I am sorry for all of your losses too. I understand how painful it is, physically and emotionally. I guess all we can do is take it one day at a time. That is my mother's favorite saying. Thank you again for being so supportive to me here and for being wonderful new friends.

Hugs & love from,
Jessi