Been Thinking Today!
mummy2girls wrote: Around this time of the year i always get thinking about jordan more than usual. Seeing little boys at the age jordan would of been now always gets me thinking. So bear with me guys....
Yesterday on 2 of our radio staions they banded together and did a cure kids cancer telethon. So all day yesterday they told stories of kids with cancer, kids that survived and beat cancer and kids that lost thier battle. It was very heart wrenching. It made me sit back and say to myself.... no matter how hard it is to lose a child due to anything you have to be thankful for the healthy ones you do have. Treasure every single moment with Jenna. Give her a happy christmas and just be grateful she is still with me. A part of me will always want jordan here with me but a part of me knows he is in a better place. He would of had a very difficult and hard life healthwise if he did survive the disease.
So this is for my baby! I love you sweetness and hope your christmas where you are is a happy one:) I miss you !!!!!!!!!!
This pic is my fav one of Jordan. This was taken when he was out of the NICU and back home. and 2 days before he relapsed and went back into the hospital!
A&A'smommy replied: Shelly, everytime you share your stories I wish I could hug you and I think to myself he is SO beautiful!!! ((((((BIG HUGS))))) We love him to Shell and I look forward to the day when i get to meet him 
FroggyJK replied: ((((((HUGS)))))
Nicole replied: I just want to give you a big hug right now 
TANNER'S MOM replied: I am sitting at work crying with thoughts of you and your angel! He is perfect and in the most perfect now! Good luck in life and give Jenna a kiss from me. 
kimberley replied: (((hugs))) Shelly. i am happy to hear you have found some peace. Jordan is beautiful!
annafrombc replied: Im new here and not sure of your situation but have an idea that you lost a baby. My hugs and prayers go out to you. I had a good cry. It must have been devastating to you!
Maddie&EthansMom replied: (((((HUGS)))))) Shelly. I'm so glad you have found peace this holiday season. You have an angel on earth and in heaven.
gr33n3y3z replied: hugs to you and your family
redchief replied: Aww Shelly, he's beautiful. I believe he as better Christmas' than we do for he is with Him. {{{{Hugs}}}}
angelhair replied: shelly, I am so very sorry that you are going through all this pain we love you and are here for you!!!!! many huge love dee
loveydad replied: Shelly, way to be. He's absoulutly beautiful. You've got the right mindset! I couldn't help but shed a few tears at your post because I'v ebeen feeling that way too. But you're right. We've got so much to look forward to, and so much to be thankful for.
btw, Jenna's a beautiful little girl!
mummy2girls replied: Thanks guys
you just never know when something can change in a split second! You just never know! I never even imagined while pregnant with Jordan that i could even lose him. I always have believed it never happens to me only other epople. But you know what...ever since my experience with Jordan i know now that anything could happen.
Jenna is my world and my life! Has anyone ever heard the song "in my daughters eyes" by martina mcbride(country). There is one line that says she was sent to rescue me... I cry everytime i hear that part because it is so true! Jenna was sent to me to rescue me.
anyways ive gone on enough...love ya guys. Your words mean alot to me:)
loveydad replied: Yes! I have heard that song it's one of my favorites. I sing it to my own kids, and my son sings it to his little girl too. It's a lovely song. I sang it last fourth of july in teh park.
raysnroof replied: I completely unstand you when you say your daughter rescued you! We lost Daniel Ephraim, our fifth child, to Biliary Atresia. He was 112 days old when he finally died. We conceived our sixth child the month after Daniel died. Beleive me, we were not even thinking of another baby so soon after the memorial service! We were thrilled to have another baby, but you can imagine the fears we battled. We were firm in making sure all our kids knew that new child would never be a replacement for Daniel. However, we never could have imagined the part he would play in helping us to grieve and move on. We never used the word "rescue," but it fits. I always said Matthew Alan (our sixth and last ) has been a balm. Like a salve you put over a bad wound to help it heal faster, he has been a figurative balm in our lives.
Hugs to you.
Sharon in KS 
GavinsMommy replied: He was a very beautiful baby. Hearing things like that makes me so sad. I am sorry you suffered such a loss. I couldn't imagine losing this baby.
Merry Christmas baby Jordan
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