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mummy2girls wrote: I was packing some stuff and i came upon a box of memories of Jordan. I opened this book and came upon the ulogy the lady talking at his funeral... I wanted to share it because it brought tears to my eyes but also brought me a warmth of memories i did have of him and was brought back to me.. its long so if you make it to the end thank you for reading

For a little boy with such a short life, Jordan made his own life as rich as possible. Baby Jordan began his life nestled in his mother's womb, and spent nine months hearing Shelly's voice, feeling her hand resting on her tummy close to Jordan, and soaking in the love of his mommy. Shelly insists that Jordan was often swimming around inside her, but every time she told his Auntie Michele, Jordan would stop moving. So Michelle had a hard time believing all this movement to be true. But finally Jordan moved for her. I think he was letting her know that he was ready to play with his Auntie even then. But Jordan was a special baby who had a large family of love including his mom and dad, aunts uncles cousins and granparents- and a large community of support.

Jordan was born on a Sunday, which his family reminded me is God's day: A child given by God and loved by God. It seems God knew just the right family to give this baby to,a family where he would recieve as much love as possible which would give him stregnth for his difficult journey through life.

Baby Jordan has been described as a child with a mission. It seems to his family that Jordan knew his mission and lived his brief life without signs of crying or complaint. He slept an awful lot, perhaps in preperation for the big struggle that was ahead of him. But when he opened his eyes, his big beautiful eyes, someone was always there ready to snap a picture of this beautiful boy. He loved to be held, and to feel all the love that surrounded him, but he didn't like to be cold expecially at bathtime. But even then, if someone was willing to let him stretch his fingers and hold onto thier hand he was willing to go through any process. Holding someones hand gave him comfort-comfort that was given to him by all those who were around him in the final stages of life: his mom, dad, his many other family members, nurses and doctors, the donor Co-ordinator and other hospital staff who came to love him. Two and a half weeks after Jordan was born he did not simply die, he died living. And when his life ended, he gave his heart to a very sick baby who would of died without his heart, and his kidneys to another sick baby. And act of courage and hope from his loving family who would of given anything to see thier baby Jordan recover. And because they couldn't do anything to make him better, they wanted to make sure somebody else's family would have that cahnce.

mammag replied: Aww Shelly......... I can't even read this all right now because I'm emotional enough right now but I'll come back to it when I won't start bawling. I only got through a couple of line before tears were flowing......

I'm so sorry for your pain. So sorry....

Lots of hugs to you.

mummy2girls replied:
i understand. you should see my keyboard... wet!

A&A'smommy replied: Oh Shelly that was beautiful!!! (((((HUGS)))))

mammag replied: Finally got through it..... ......absolutely beautiful!!!!

Emeraldsmom replied: Oh Shelly, I am in tears right now. I am so sorry for the pain you must be feeling.

amymom replied: Shelly, How special to have that to hold onto!

angelhair replied: shelly what a beuatiful tribute to your little boy and what a unselfosh act to think of other bebies at such a hard time. jordon still lives on in the lifes of those babies and in your mind and heart. your little boy sounds like a special and beautiful treasure and it is obvious that he was and is surrounded by love, both in his brief life on earth and his eternal life in heaven! love dee

gr33n3y3z replied: Shelly thank you for sharing it was very beautiful

Josie83 replied: Shelly that was lovely, what a fitting tibute to your little boy. Also I think you are amazing for donating his organs at what must have such an horrific time - that's such a wonderful thing to do xx

mummy2girls replied: Thanks guys!

It wasnt hard to decide because i wanted to prevent any mom and dad to go through what i was enduring. So if i could save one family or 2 of this then i wanted to.

A nice story though... I wanted to ask Jordan if he wanted this and i knew in my head that he couldnt answer because he was brain dead but i just had this wierd feeling to ask him. So i leaned over and whispered in his ear if he wanted to do this. And i looked at him and he smiled. I knew then and there i had to do it.

I for some reason thought the kidneys was going to a baby thats why in his ulogy it was stated a baby but after the funeral and such the Co-ordinator(who was at the service) came to me and told me that it was a lady. But that this lady was someone who was infertile and could never in her life have kids so when she found out she was getting a baby's kidneys she was so happy! And i was too.And the baby that got his heart was a twin. Thats all i know about these reciepienmts. And in canada you can never know thier indentity. unlike the states where after a year you can find out. So thats the sad thing about that. But i do receive letters from the families and they tell me they are doing ok:)

Sorry to go on and on but it getting close to his death date and im really emotional and i talk when i get like this!

redchief replied: Thanks for sharing your special gift with us, Shelly.

b&bsmom replied: Shelly, I can not imagine how you feel. It is a great tribute to your son to have donated his organs. It is the greatest gift you could have given those families and that seems to be what Jordan's mission in his short little life was. God was careful in chosing someone who would the right thing and share his organs. I am so sorry for your loss. Just remember we are here for you and anytime you want to talk we will listen.

TLCDad replied: A very beautiful tribute! Thank you for sharing Shelly.

jcc64 replied: Shelley- I admire anyone who can survive the death of a child in one piece. But then, in your grief, to be thinking of the suffering of others, people you'd never even know, and to be able to donate Jordan's organs, that is a pure act of courage and strength, and I am in awe of you. May that strength continue to fortify you in your grief. Hugs to you and Jenna.

stanleygirl replied: That was really beautiful, thank you so much for sharing, you are a very special person, and to have helped others out in such a sad time, just shows how special you are. You are in my prayers ((HUGS)) to you.

kimberley replied: that was very beautiful Shelly. thank you for sharing with us.

SOUTHERN MOMMY replied: This is the most beautiful unselfish thing i know of thank you so much for sharing this as, i am sure it has to be hard you trully are a wonderful person shelly

Candee replied: That's so sweet. Prayers for Jordan & you.

Candee
Jaimee (1-7-04)
Ryan (3-2-05)

kayla's mama replied: That was such a touching story.