Robert and I are over...

:.Mrs_Mommy.: wrote: Maybe you remember me asking about the chatting and whether I was nuts? Well I found on his acct quite a few racy converstations, there were more because he would call her computer from his computer. He also had her number in his phone so I'm sure they talked alot there too. Anyway when I confronted him he said "If its any consolation I came to you first".

I feel so disappointed that I wasted 5 years on this pathetic excuse for a man. He was my best friend! I loved him more than I loved myself and I wasn't good enough. I get so angry with him and myself that my kids are going through this right now. They don't deserve this.

I haven't cried yet because I haven't been alone, I don't want to cry at work or in front of the kids but I have been on the verge of tears all day. I feel like a failure. All I ever wanted was a happy household, I gave him everything I could. I worked so hard to make this marriage a happy one. He came back in November after a 10 month split and some of those conversations were from December!! December!

So blind! So ignorant! So naive!

I never, ever want to do this again. Marriage is horrible and can only end 1 way. Being left alone AGAIN!

I am a good person, hard worker, great mom and I don't deserve this. I hope one day life kind of works itself out so it isn't so painful. I don't want to live in this black cloud of pain, heartbreak and disappointment any longer. I want the sun to shine on me agian.

Sam & Abby's Mom replied:
Wow - I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. Its not an easy thing - that's for sure.

The five years you've spent with him have not been a waste. You have beautiful children as a result and you gave love and marriage a chance and everything you had. That's not a waste. Its a shame he didnt hold up his end of the bargain, but you my dear, you have NOTHING to be ashamed of. You put your heart and soul into him and your family and you should hold your head up high for that.

Love is a gamble, its a risk. Unless you take the risk, you cant reap the benefits.

The black cloud wont linger forever. It will slowly fade and you will suddenly realize you are a new person, a better person and a stronger person.

Hang in there and keep the Faith!

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gr33n3y3z replied: What an idiot for saying that to you
You deserve so much better and I agree you need to move on since this is his 2nd time he blew.
We are here for you

Kirstenmumof3 replied: I'm so sorry he did this to you and your family! That's horrible! Take good care of yourself, pamper yourself a little and allow yourself to cry! It's not going to be easy, but remember we are all here for you! Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers! The sun will shine again, I promise you it will!

Teesa®© replied: I don't think you wasted that time with him, HE'S the one who wasted that time talking to some chippy instead of spending his time with his FAMILY. He lost out. He wanted his cake and it too, but all he's got left is no cake and some chick with no morals.

sparkys2boys replied: I'm so sorry your going through this hun. we are here id you ever need to talk

Sam & Abby's Mom replied:
Yah - I agree - I cant believe he said that to you!

MyBabeMaddie replied: I'm so sorry!

A&A'smommy replied: what a jerk!!!! I'm SOOO sorry you are going through this right now!!!

luvmykids replied: I'm so sorry, you're right, you don't deserve this and he is a pathetic excuse for a husband. I know you're devastated but you will get through this and find happiness again!

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bawoodsmall replied: He doesnt deserve you anyway. Try to take some time to feel the anger and pain. Scream when the kids arent there, throw things. You need that.

Bamamom replied: Bless your heart! I'll be praying for you I can't even imagine how hard that would be.

mckayleesmom replied: Sorry for your heartbreak. I hope you begin to heal soon and realize that love is worth it with the right person and you deserve that right person.

HuskerMom replied: I'm so sorry!

redchief replied: That it should turn out so is a testament to your ability to love and commit. You have not wasted your time, as the others have already said. I pray you can find strength and peace in this time.

:.Mrs_Mommy.: replied: Thank you all for your kind words. I talked with my kids today and all they said was "Again?" That right there says alot about it, there were no tears, no fighting and Aaron said "Well we are going to Nonnie and Tom's (Aunt and Uncle) so we will probably forget anyway."

It is kind of wierd but the one thing that is stressing me out a bit is daycare, next to kids of course. My sister and BIL and mom and stepdad are helping me but I just don't like to inconvience people. I know they don't mind but if I could do it all on my own than I would be much better for it. I get daycare assistance now and my sister is going to get paid for watching them, which is better than them going to a daycare but I just feel like I should do it on my own. It is hard to ask for help, but definately something I need help with. I am so grateful I have such a good support system.

Thank you all for being there for me!

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Teesa®© replied: We're always here for you

Hillbilly Housewife replied: Sorry Hon. If you need an ear, feel free.

My2Beauties replied: I'm so sorry!