My Angel in heaven has a birthday June 27th - I love you Jordan.....

mummy2girls wrote: I am posting tonight as tomorrow will be a hard day to post this...

my angel Jordan (forever 17 days old) has a birthday on friday(June 27th). He would of been 4 years old. He is big bro to Jenna...

I love you baby Jordan, Happy birthday sweet angel. I miss you and think of you dearly. Sending kisses and hugs to you on this day.

TLCDad replied: Happy Birthday Jordan!

Mommieto2Girls replied: Happy Birthday Jordan

You are in my thoughts on your special day,

MommyToAshley replied: Happy Birthday

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers on this special day!

amynicole21 replied: Happy Birthday Jordan

Julie (jem0622) replied: Happy Birthday, Angel boy

HUGS

Julie

aspenblue1 replied: Happy birthday Jordan

Kaitlin'smom replied: Happy Birthday to the

Hillbilly Housewife replied: Happy birthday sweetie!!!

mummy2girls replied: Mommyto ashley...how did you get through the days of your sweet angel in heaven? July 14th will be 4 years since losing him.... and it still hurts on his birthday and anniversary of death.

My baby boy sent me an angel...jenna and he is her guardian angel. (I believe)

there is a big irony with both my kids and my paternal grandma... jordan died a day after my grandmas birthday and my daughter jenna was born a day before my grandmas death...

victoire2002 replied: Happy Birhtday, Little Angel Jordan

MomToMany replied: Happy Birthday Little Angel


You're in our thoughts and prayers on this day!

kit_kats_mom replied: Happy birthday Jordan.

Try to plan a relaxing day for yourslef and your family. Remember him and know that it's fine to cry. Tears are just a manifestation of your love for him.

supermom replied: Happy Birthday Angel Boy Jordan

May God continue to watch over and protect you so that you can do the same for your little sister.

And hugs to your family on this day.

MommyToAshley replied:
I won't say that it is easy. I think I cried so much the first year that I didn't have any tears left. It's been a little over three years now, and anniversaries, birthdates, and due dates are always the hardest.

Joshua was stillborn, and at first I was a little reluctant to hold him at the hospital. I think because I didn't know what to expect. But, I am soo glad to have had that time with him... to hold and rock him, to look at his tiny little feet and hands -- to be able to feel the kind of love a Mom has for her baby. I will never forget the way he felt in my arms, or how his tiny little hands looked in mine. And, I didn't realize how important it was at the time, but I am glad I had the chance to say good-bye.

At first, all I did was cry. I was sooo sad and all I could think about is that my baby is gone... I would never get to feed my baby, to hold or rock him again, to see the first smile and watch him reach all those milestones we treasure. All I was left with was a memory of how he felt that day in the hospital.

Then, I felt nothing but guilt, I thought I was being punished for something or I did something wrong to cause it. And, then it was the "why me" phase. I also got really upset because nobody wanted to talk to me about him... everyone avoided the subject. But, I wanted to talk about him, after all, he was my son! And, I got really upset with God for letting this happen. But, looking back now, I know it is God that gave me the strength to continue on. I am thankful for the time I did have with Joshua, but I still miss him dearly. There is some comfort in knowing that he is in good hands now, but I am still sitting here typing this message with tears running down my face.

I think it is normal to continue feeling this pain, I don't think it ever goes away. I think you just learn to live with it. A few days before Mother's Day, I took down Joshua's baby box. I looked at his picture, and smelled his blanket...it still smelled like him. I studied his little footprints and I had about an hour cry. I believe it is ok to still miss him.

I am sooo sorry you are suffering, and I wish I could be there to give you a great big hug! It is ok to talk about your son. Anytime you want to talk about him, remember him, or share how you feel, please msg or email me at deedee@parentingclub.com. Or, post on here... everyone here is very supportive. I am really going to try to get the "angels" forum up so everyone will feel more comfortable talking about this kind of thing.

amynicole21 replied: I want you both to know that you are incredibly brave and strong. I'm crying for both of your angels today. And for their Mommies.

flyingmom replied: Happy Birthday to your angel baby.
He must be very proud of his family as he looks down on you all. Know that you are in his heart as big as he is in yours.
You will overcome...doesn't mean you will EVER forget, but you will be as peaceful as he.